14 Dec 2011 6 Comments
Yesterday was the day I heard whether or not I was accepted early into Brown University.
I knew I would hear at 4pm and all day was counting down to the hour. I kept praying that God would give me peace over whatever the decision was.
As 4pm neared, I sat on the couch, waiting. I painted my nails to pass the time. I peed. I ate a granola bar. I sat there, feeling dizzy and slightly panicked.
My sister was sitting next to me. She was the only one who knew I was going to hear from Brown yesterday (she had 4:00 B written on her hand…in “code” so no one would know…cute :).
She turned to me and said “two minutes!”
I was flipping out and asked “What if it’s TERRIBLE news???”
She said “There’s no such thing as terrible news. Just good news, and not so good news.” <– she’s pretty smart that girl.
I tried to keep that in mind as I logged in to my Brown account. I had to click through many links before finally reading the letter.
“After a careful evaluation of your credentials, the Board of Admission has voted to postpone a final decision on your application.”
Sigh. I wish I could have said it was good news. But alas, not so good news it is.
I felt a lot of things after seeing that. Disappointment, frustration, rejection, sadness, anger, discouragement.
I was frustrated that I put so much time and energy into the application, an application that I thought was really strong, only to be rejected. I was disappointed that I didn’t get in, and that I now have to complete a lot of other applications to other colleges. I felt really discouraged, feeling that not getting in to Brown means I won’t get in anywhere. And I felt a little bit angry at God that I didn’t get in.
Me: Hey God, I was supposed to get in. Brown is perfect for me!
God: Umm I may not think so! You asked my opinion!
Me: I don’t like your opinion.
God: Well I don’t like your nailpolish.
Me: Well I don’t like the Old Testament!
God: Well your handwriting is messy!
Yeah…God and I have issues sometime. Or maybe it’s just me that has issues ;)
<Insert picture of yummy goody to diffuse the tension> ;)
I’m feeling better about this now. Still upset, but ready to send in my other applications and be done with this whole process.
One thing that makes things a little easier is a story I heard when I was visiting Harvard this summer.
I visited Harvard with my grandparents, and we met up with a family friend who is the head of undergraduate physics. We were talking about how schools are so selective, and he told us about a girl he had met who had applied to the school. He said he was sure she’d get in because not only was she brilliant, but she had built her own airplane and flown it. But she wasn’t accepted to Harvard. And she was wait-listed at MIT. Uhh yeah, crazy! She eventually got in to MIT, and after her freshmen year was voted the Freshman of the Year. Things worked out for Airplane Girl, hopefully they’ll work out for me, too.
As I’m going through all this college stuff, I’m trying to stay positive, listen to God (we’re good now :), and remember Airplane Girl.
So, what do you do when you get disappointing news? You do something fun. Like make Oreo Truffles! I had these for the first time several years ago and thought they were absolutely incredible. I made them for my teachers for a little Christmas present and they all loved them! They couldn’t be easier to make..or more delicious to eat :)
1 Package Double Stuffed Oreos (I was tempted to use those crazy new triple stacker oreos, but resisted…next time ;)
8 oz. block cream cheese
1 package white or milk chocolate bark coating
1 cup semi-sweet chocolate chips (optional)
Almond flavoring (optional)
- In a food processor, blend oreos until they make a coarse, coffee-like mixture.
- Mix oreos with softened block of cream cheese until if forms a smooth, cohesive mixture. Mix in a teaspoon or two of almond flavoring if you desire (NOT almond extract. You can use almond extract, but use much much less).
- Roll into small balls, placing them on wax paper or aluminum foil-lined cookie sheets.
- Refridgerate overnight, or put in the freezer for an hour.
- Melt the chocolate bark. I use milk chocolate bark, but find that it’s a little too sweet, so I mixed in some semi-sweet chocolate chips. It made the chocolate perfectly sweet, but does make the chocolate crack a little bit when hardened.
- Place the balls back on the cookie sheet to cool.
- Can be made several nights in advance. Store in the fridge.
Makes about 35-40 oreo truffles, depending on what size you make them.